It's 2.30pm, and after my 2nd cup of coffee for the day,
my thought processes are in a haze.
What the hell is going on?
I am motivated (I think).
My objective to become one of THE best in my field remains firm.
But just a few hours into the day,
and already I'm wondering how the hell I'm going to navigate through the haze,
through the thick vegetation,
to get to that elusive path...
And I am worried.
Oh yes.
Not for myself.
But for Jenia.
She doesn't even want to learn about Islam,
except via fragments on some websites,
whose credibility I can't confirm.
And it's highly likely she ran into quite a number
of the Islamophobic propaganda sites.
Other than those fragments,
she also wants clear answers from me on specific things,
such as my usury is banned in Islam (and coincidentally, other major religions).
I can't remember (or maybe I never knew) the reason.
Long ago, I did my own research,
and came to the conclusion that Islam was the one true path.
And yea, I get the logic.
If you're going to follow the rules or guidelines,
at the very least know WHY you do so.
Thing is,
it's just not practical, dammit.
I did my research,
and at the time, accepted it.
What I remember is that what I learned was good enough for me.
But I can't recall EXACTLY and in detail what is it that I learned.
Only, that it was good enough for me.
It's like taking an exam for a subject, and passing it.
Then having someone come up to you years and years later,
and ask you specific questions from that exam, expecting you to have the answers.
It's just not practical.
But that's not the only thing I'm worried about.
Cash. I'm running out of it.
And I've barely made a dent in designing my first mobile game.
It's beginning to take the form of something that I might rely on,
and that's pretty damn scary.
Mobile game designers RARELY make much money.
The trick is to make a few games,
and hopefully earn a few hundred bucks overall.
That means,
maybe you'd earn $200 over 2 years from your game.
Yep. FANTASTIC.
Well enough of that
