In the office, and it's not even 3.30 yet.
My head feels like it's floating,
and my many thoughts once again feel vague,
lacking in sharp edges.
They feel like separate, wispy clouds...
stretched out, almost covering the whole sky on a bright sunny day.
I'm waiting for my technical consultant to finish transferring the VM to my laptop,
so we can finally run the demo.
Thought I'd make some conversation with another colleague...
And when I opened my mouth,
absolutely nothing of substance came out.
My mind went to sleep.
I could see myself from the outside,
thinking 'What the hell is guy on?'
And no, I wasn't nervous.
In fact, it would probably have helped if I were.
Not sure what happened, exactly.
If you're yawning by now,
I would like to thank you from the bottom of my heart for coming this far.
Now fuck off and get a life.
Started the day with the conviction that I was going to achieve greatness:
I was going to one day,
work for a huge company like Google or Facebook or IBM.
I'm going to the guy they talk about in LinkedIn articles about sales or business processes.
I'm going to be inspiration.
The one who didn't even graduate secondary school didn't let that stop me.
Earning millions of dollars and retiring early without having to work any more was my initial goal.
But that's not enough anymore.
No. I'm going to go forth and kick some ass.
Or at least give it my best shot.
No regrets.
Well enough of that
