Of all the things to happen and piss me the fuck off for two days,
it had to be a motherfucking Merc driver who didn't want to stop at the traffic light...
whilst she froze like a goddamn deer in headlights,
hand in held with the little one,
in the middle of the motherfucking street.
I mean yea,
she was startled and it really, only took like maybe two seconds or so (before I told her to move it).
The incident itself probably didn't really bother me that much, I think.
Fuck that skinny bitch of a man,
for trying to intimidate us into moving faster across the street.
Fuck the traffic light that took motherfucking ages to change.
Yea the light was red for cars,
but so was the sign for pedestrians.
Others moved across it,
and it was a very narrow street in any case.
And yea,
we shouldn't have moved at the time,
but knowing the law and how cars always have to yield to pedestrians
means fuck-all in situations like that.
It's a combination of things.
The fucking driver.
Especially when he rolled his stupid window down,
revealing his (relatively) young, and yet Skeletor-like body.
Her taking ages to move across the street,
and then freezing in the middle of it.
And yea,
my mistake for getting them to cross the street with me
(this is where she waited and fucking waited before moving, so ended up trailing behind).
Oh and one more thing.
Been spending way too much time on Reddit.
Should've just flipped the bird
and told him to fuck off.
Instead I... argued with the skinny asshole.
And even asked him to call the TP (traffic police).
The fuck?
In hindsight it sounds so stupid.
Never mind that the guy either looked confused,
or worried that the police might get involved.
But either way,
it made us both look extra douchey and yea...
not at all like two middle-aged, male Karens arguing.
PERFECT.
-Come on, man. I can't even type in peace.
I could lock my door,
but that'd be look like an ass.
And on top of all this,
we have to get ready for that stupid thing
near Suntec City -
Three more things then I'm done.
Don't like it?
Fuck off.
So yea,
the idea that I almost lost my temper...
especially with my daughter there.
At the age of 40 no less.
Makes me extremely disappointed with myself.
And annoyed.
Very annoyed.
I'd say this time round,
it was definitely better?
Like in the past,
I might have taken it further
but realised quickly that even if I were in the right
and called the police,
the effect it would have on my daughter
would've graduated from bad
to core-memory horrible.
And after walking away from that driver,
yea,
I tried to rant a little bit.
Couldn't help myself.
So I told her that drivers ALWAYS have to give way to pedestrians.
And... nothing.
She didn't say a fucking thing.
No support,
nothing.
I'm not looking for a fucking medal, here.
Even a simple "Yea fuck that idiot" would've been enough.
But in public,
she ignored me for that.
I've defended her before.
Hell, I've done it so many times already.
And yea,
she might have been annoyed too...
but nothing.
It's not just that.
She does it with so many other things.
Like she could barely give a shit,
even with things I'm excited about.
And again,
I FUCKING GET IT.
It was wrong to act that way
(explained it to my daughter),
but that bit where she ignored me?
Made me feel even worse.
-INTERRUPTED AGAIN.
And yes, I should've closed the door.
Or said something.
And you know what?
Fuck it.
I'm also gonna add that
when I'm in the middle of texting (often for work),
or typing something,
she expects a response immediately.
But when she's on the phone,
doing the exact same thing,
or reading an e-book,
she'll ignore you or get extremely annoyed
when you ask her for a response,
even if you needed one immediately-
Anyway, where was I.
Oh yes, ignoring me.
Fucking hell.
Is this what's called "support"?
Made me feel worse,
from embarrassed to angry.
Bit my lip and we continued on our way.
When it comes to her,
no way, man.
I'd HAVE to express support (and I'm happy to),
even if she's wrong,
I'd still provide emotional support.
But when it comes to me?
Fuck no.
FUCK NO.
It's usually just "Oh forget it".
Could not give two shits about what I felt.
My perspective.
Nope.
Like my motherfucking opinion doesn't matter.
Just shut the fuck up already.
But remember!
When it's MY thing,
please ensure you provide the adequate amount of support. Yes.
Oh?
You're upset over something?
Why waste my fucking time?
I've got e-books to read,
shopping to do,
so shut the fuck up.
Why are you upset?
Shut up.
Yea.
She's amazing in so many ways,
but in this particular aspect,
it is fucked up.
And the final thing that bothered me all the way to this morning.
Not figuring out the right move for future reference.
The best option would be to flip the bird and keep walking.
If the guy gets the chance to talk whilst you're moving,
just keep the bird in the air and continue on the way.
Even if he gets out,
keep going.
They can try me if they want,
but I sure as hell am not catching a charge
in this stupid-ass country
where if you had the option to run away like a bitch
(even if it means the aggressor gets a chance to steal
or wreck your shit and does so,
where the police will usually do fuck-all
or it's not worth the effort to get compensation)...
and you didn't,
and chose to defend yourself...
you'd still be found guilty.
So fuck no.
I'll flip them off and keep walking,
and they can come at me from behind if they want (shut up),
where I'll then be fully entitled to fight back (of course, fuckin briefly until
I could get into a position to get away. Fucking hell. I hate this fucking law).
Immature? Petty?
Sure.
Avoids more severe problems and escalation?
Doesn't make you feel like shit for not saying anything?
Absolutely.
Right now it's important not to overthink it,
or I might accidentally end up WANTING to get
into a similar situation...
and overreact to it.
No.
If it never happens again, great.
If it does,
flip the bird, and walk away.
I'm big enough to intimidate most bitches anyhow.
Well enough of that.
