I don't think it's burnout that I'm feeling,
or maybe a lesser version of it.
But it's once again getting harder to get my thoughts together,
let alone put them into words.
Probably a combination of fatigue and... stress?
I mean, I'll be hitting my target this year.
Hell, this year's on track to be the best year I've ever had
as a proper sales manager, man.
And yet here I am.
Haven't prayed in ages,
to the point where I'm worried I might not be able to read Arabic properly again.
Been so long since I've had a regular gym routine,
and forget about brushing up on my Russian,
I haven't even had the time to continue reading a book that I actually like!
Goddammit what's going on.
I need to get a grip.
First thing's first.
Get to the tasks at hand.
And do not neglect gym, reading, learning Russian.
I get the feeling even watching a movie or show
might work in some way to get my brain functioning fully again.
-Update 26th Dec 18 -
Man, I must've completely forgotten I hadn't published this yet.
Right now I'm back in the office,
and even with the resolve and extra time I have
to write more,
or even reach out to potential investors,
there's a sort of internal resistance,
like a strong wall of air preventing me from moving forward.
I'll have to push through.
If I can't do it now when I've got a ton of free time,
then I doubt I'll be able to make it work when things pick up again.
Well enough of that.
