It's been more than a year.
For a brief period, I thought yea, this is it. I'll be here for a while, I think.
BUt it's starting again.
No matter what I do, people turn against me.
Now I gotta admit,
most of them weren't exactly crazy about me before.
The ones who DID think I deserved a fair shake.
They worry me now.
It always starts the same way.
No matter what I do,
try to keep a low profile, get out of the way,
it still comes.
The tide comes in, and there's nothing you can do about it.
OK, OK... no more fucking cliched metaphors.
I am depressed.
Can't get myself to work out.
This month has been a wash.
When in the past,
I had so much energy.
Hell, I enjoyed the fasting month...
gave me an excuse to work out
without having to eat 2 hours before.
What in the hell is going on?
I wish I knew.
Maybe it's just me.
Maybe I'm just a fucking dumbass.
Well enough of that.
