Why

Why the fuck did you do that?
Sheesh.

Postponed to next Friday.
Now I'm wondering what
the hell I'm gonna do about this Saturday.

Ah well. 

Huh.

Well whaddaya know...
It didn't turn out to be a total disaster.

I'm sleepy... very.
My eyelids weigh a ton.

I had a long day at work...
made a lot of mistakes.

And yet...
I don't give a shit.



Yea... guess I DID have a good time.
Fucking surreal.

Fat Fucker

So yeah, check this out:  http://health.asiaone.com/Health/News/Story/A1Story20100110-190778/4.html

Look at the smile on that fucking fat piece of shit
lying cocksucker.

A year ago, he was part of a plan to get some poor Indonesian guy to sell
his kidney for a small amount (about 50,000 bucks? I can't recall the amount).

This guy, is a fucking millionaire thanks to his dad.
Has connections to the 'elite' in Singapore.

So when the plan was found out,
guess who got arrested and immediately convicted?

The ones who hatched the plan?
The ones who identified the guy, knew he was desperate,
then gave him hope... in exchange for his kidney?

Why, of course not!

That dude was thrown into jail so fast, it was all a blur.

And he was sentenced to MONTHS,
while his wife and kids starve back home.

And Tang?
This fat piece of shit asshole motherfucker?

He got ONE day in prison.
And this was the sentence given... by a Subordinate Court judge.

For those not in the know,
most Subordinate Court judges would bend over backwards
for the prosecutors if asked to.

Oh and man... you should've seen the drama when he was convicted!
His friends were crying... saying it was too cruel...

Who cried for that poor Indonesian and his family?
He could've at least given them a certain amount to tide them over.

But no... he just went on and on about how happy
he was to receive a kidney.

And yea... while others have been on the waiting list
for much, much longer than he has...
somehow.. SOMEHOW... he managed to jump
the queue and get a kidney (this time 'legally').

IT MUST BE A FUCKING MIRACLE!

Somebody needs to stick a knife into his anus.


Fuck you, you fat fucker.

Yeah

I'm not exactly sure what happened to my original post.

But oh well.

At last... my thoughts have settled.
Even at this age,
I'm still prone to immature, knee-jerk reactions.

Still got a lot of growing up left to do.
I'm working on it.

Anyway,
if you're reading this Sarah...
No, I don't hate you.
Didn't idealise you, either.

One of the reasons I fell for you was because you were damaged...
like me.
And fucking brilliant, too.

I'm sorry about what happened to you in the past,
I really am.

But no matter how much I wish I could
go back in time,
fact is,
there's nothing I can do about it (duh, I know) (shut up).

I'm also sorry I can't help make you feel better
about your... current situation.

You should've just told me.
Given me a little bit of respect,
instead of treating me like some kind of back-up to run to
if your main plan falls apart.

Doesn't really matter now, eh?

So yeah,
go ahead and hate me.

Call me anything you want.

This is my last post about you.
Because seriously,
unless I cut it out,
I'm NEVER getting over you.

So take care.

Bye now.

Ah Yes

Just HAD to take a peek.

Well now I don't feel so bad.
Everything's MY fault.
Right.

Tell me you feel suicidal,
then disappear for about 2 weeks...
and then a stupid little 'gesture'?

Wow.
Yeah.
Even if you were a dude,
I'd still have been worried.

You could've been... oh I don't know... DEAD.

Clearly... all depressive psycho losers worry if someone
they cared about had fucking KILLED THEMSELVES.


Nothing's ever your fault.
Us losers just gravitate towards you, eh?

By the way, I don't have low self-esteem.
In fact, I think I'm pretty awesome.

And yeah, I did think you were special.
Nope, don't wish I never met you.

Yep, am gonna forget about you in a week or so.
Should've known better.
Mann... what an epic waste of my time.


Fuck you.
Go suck the life out of someone else.

Never Again

Remember the rules that you set for yourself.
Remember what happens when you break them.

Always remember.
Never break them again.

Always remember that
When you say 'Always',
The only one who means it is you.

Always.



I've kept my promise.
For as long as you allowed me to.
I no longer have permission.

So my debt has been paid,
And my conscience is clear.

At last it's over.



Mann... a fucking poem?
GOD.

Enough of this.


Time to start kicking ass again.

Yea

The day I'm hurting like crazy... is the day I find out I'm getting a huge bonus.

Mann... I don't know whether to laugh, or cry. Now that I CAN afford to go overseas... I've got nowhere to go.

Eh, story of my life.


Oh yea, and I found out that my boss is being transferred to Burlington.
Great.

I'm gonna be stuck with Prada Bitch and her sidekick. Not to mention the rest of the annoying cocksuckers.

If she DOES leave, one of two things might happen:
I'll get fired, or, I'll be promoted.

I don't want her to leave.
SHE is the main reason I'm staying there, and not pulling all kinds of shit... like I normally do.



I guess Trent Reznor got it right.
Everybody leaves in the end.

Final ExperienceProject Story

Yep. I'm back.
Lately, I've had some people who, upset at some of the comments I've left on certain stories, send me insulting messages or quote passages from MY own stories... to justify telling me that I "deserve to be alone."
Oh, really?
Let's make this clear.
I'm not a goddamn paragon of virtue. Never professed to be one. And I won't apologise for not fitting into your narrow definition of what's 'morally right'.
I 'deserve' to be alone? That would matter to me... if it were your decision to make.
It's not. Tough shit.
Hey now look, you don't need to quote me to justify your hatred... to make yourself feel better. If you want to hate, don't send me messages, and then block me right afterward.
Grow a fucking spine, and just come out with it.
Oh yeah, and if I do end up alone, it will be MY choice. Maybe I'll change my mind. Maybe I won't. Again, it's MY choice.
I don't owe you an explanation.
But if you demand one, I may just have to smack your face with my electric chainsaw (which is awesome, by the way).

Well, that's about it.

And this time, I DO have some cake. Help yourselves...

Unintentional -Imported from afore-mentioned crappy site

Yep. They mean well, they do.
Now I've been told all kinds of crap by women about my appearance (my face, mostly).
Which is why I try to minimise any
contact with them in real-life.

But the most hurtful comments (I sound really macho, I know) have come from those who mean well.

Now I know I'm ugly.
Been told that many, many (MANY!) times before.

I'm cool with that.
Nothing much that can be done about my face.

But these people...
they view my picture,
and in an attempt to make
me feel better...
say the exact opposite.
Now don't get me wrong. I appreciate it.
But I know for fact  that it's not true... and it makes me feel like shit. Especially since I can't get pissed off at them.
Why would I? They ARE being kind. It's like robbing a store, beating the shit out of the clerk, so you can get the cash to buy your kid something nice.
Thing is, not one of them would be seen dead in public with me.
And before any of you go "OMG! SO THEY SHOULD ALL GO OUT WITH YOU! YOU CRAZY! OMG LOL!"... kindly bend over.... yes... and stick your head up your assholes. Yep. Just like that.
All I'm saying is... it just feels like charity. And I do not fucking need charity. Not from anyone.
So yea... again, I appreciate it. But you should know it makes me want to crawl into a wood chipper. At least it'd hurt less.
And of course, back to work, tomorrow. So... no cake this time. You can have this cookie, though.

Who Was the Racist Idiot That Asked This: 'do You Know Afghanistan Allows Rape In Marriage?'...? --- From that crappy site as well

Do you jerk off to Bill O'Reilly each night?
And most of the answers that this dumbass got... were equally stupid.
Did no one even TRY and do any research?
Some stupid, ignorant dick even went '... it's part of their sharia...'.
Under Islamic Law, you hurt your wife once, it's an AUTOMATIC DIVORCE. Yes, including slapping, you stupid, stupid people.
I studied at a madrasah (Islamic School) nearly all my life... and the only time I ever hear or read about Islam allowing abuse... is when it comes from people (including Muslims) who know VERY LITTLE about Islamic Law.
And the thing that really pisses me off... is when those people ask questions like that, they (and their supporters) try and back it up with bogus 'facts'. People have to do actual research to rebut them... only to be hit with another volley of bullshit.
I try and stay away from that kind of debate mainly because it just never ends well.
People will believe what they want to believe. It just so happens that I came across that question... and felt I had to say SOMETHING.

That person's face needs to be introduced to my shovel. The dumb fuck. 

Have To Get It Off My Chest (from the same crappy site)

Well here I am again. I came across one of the groups here titled 'I Am Cheating On My Husband'. And of course from there, came across more similar groups.
Before I go on, if any dumbasses feel like posting comments such as 'MEN CHEAT , TOO! OMG LOL!' then kindly FUCK OFF.
There are enough forums and groups about cheating men, and since I have no desire to date men, I'm just gonna focus on how I feel about the female cheaters.
I won't judge because come on, who am I, right? But what really freaks me out is some of the reasons they offer. Quite a number of them did it simply because the other guy was hot and they wanted to bang him.
Another common reason (at least on EP), is that the husband wasn't good enough in bed and since hot guys were available, well, yea... you get the idea.
And again, before any geniuses decide to go all 'NOT ALL WOMEN ARE CHEATERS! YOU SUCK! OMG LOL!' then please, stick this dynamite up yours and light it .
Hopefully the only readers left are the ones who use logic and have better comprehension skills.
I'm just saying that for me, being alone seems like a waaaaay better option than finding out my wife cheated on me. Even if she tells me I'm sorry and I genuinely believe her... I will never get the image of the guy(s) pleasuring my wife and the look of pure joy on her face as it happened.
It scares the hell out of me. And I don't scare easy (except for clowns, which are pure evil) (and killer rabbits) (and The Burger King guy).
As usual, there's cake over there. Help yourselves...

EDIT: I replaced the sentences "Hopefully the only readers left are the one who use logic. And we know there are ALWAYS exceptions." with the one above because they had implied that most women were cheaters. That's not what I'm trying to say.

From Some Crap Site : 1

Sweet. The only one in my group. I reign supreme, baby.
Anyway, let's see now...
I'm 27 years old, and have never had a girlfriend. Growing up, people kinda made it a point to let me know how butt-ugly I was. Let's just say I didn't really need a costume for Halloween.
And once I got to a certain age, I made it a point to tell them where they could stick their opinions.
I don't drink. I don't smoke. Hell, my main vice is playing Warcraft 3.
People keep telling me 'Oh she'll come... she'll come...' but eh, if she's already in her 30's, then no thanks.
Apparently most women tend to come to their senses and settle for guys like me when they at least hit 30 (according to studies and anecdotal evidence).
Most of them either have no choice (the really hot guys aren't into them anymore) or have decided on someone more... stable.
Now here's the thing. I don't want to be anyone's sloppy seconds, or thirds, or fourths... well, you get the idea.
It'll probably sound stupid to some people... but I'd rather not be with someone who's only with me because she's been rejected by her usual type... or because she's tired her usual type... well, never really changes.

And the worst part is... throughout my teen years and in my early 20s, I had kept trying.So now, I'm just gonna attempt to get used to it. Oh well, there's still Warcraft, right?

That's pretty much it.

There's cake over there. Help yourselves.


EDIT: Just because I've said I'll never be WITH anyone, does NOT mean I hate women in their 30's! Come ON, man! I've got no problem being friends with anyone (except for the seriously stupid).

I'm a fucking asshole.
I think we can all agree on that.

Seriously?
You want her to drop EVERYTHING?
Just for you?
Who the FUCK do you think you are?

I am selfish.
Didn't see that before, but I do now.

Funny how it takes something
like this to open your eyes.

I do my prayers 5 times a day.
I fast during the fasting month.

I don't drink... watch what I eat.

Hell, I'm not even crazy about boobs.



She wouldn't have been happy with me.



You're a lucky bastard.
And you don't deserve her.

But she chose you.

So if I ever find that you hurt her... in ANY WAY...

I swear...






Hey, I told you.
Always.

No matter what.
Even when you forget all about
whatever the hell it is that we had.




Ah, fuck me.

Interesting

Why the fuck am I so goddamn stupid?

Yea... yea... I know... I know... others have much bigger problems.
But this is MY blog.

So please feel free to suck it.


Anyway... today's the beginning of my new 7-week routine.
And this time, I'm going all out.
Yet, I'm not excited.



So somebody please tell me... why the FUCK am I so goddamn stupid?

What?

It's Saturday, and I'm actually looking forward to Monday.

Fucking... MONDAY!

Not that anything special's happening.


I just want the time to pass by as soon as possible.



Fuck me.