So I wasn't planning on posting today,
but a client had requested that I pen
a recommendation for her on LinkedIn,
which I'm happy to do.
She's definitely a pleasure to work with,
and quite sharp.
Problem is, I'm quite sleepy
and for the life of me,
can't figure out how
to get a paragraph in that
doesn't sound like it was written
by a spaced-out toddler who'd just finished her ice-cream.
So I tried reading the news.
Went to The Guardian,
and saw an opinion piece on
Germany's approach to antisemitism:
https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2019/may/29/the-guardian-view-on-german-responses-to-antisemitism-frankness-and-honesty
It was open for comments.
Yep.
As usual,
with anything even remotely related to Muslims,
you get a deluge of bigoted comments,
including for people who purportedly
are concerned about discrimination against Jews.
The same types of comments that
you'd get on any article involving Muslims and women.
Even if it were an article about the achievement of a woman
who happens to be Muslim.
Yea...
I get the feeling it's kind of like
a guy with swastika tattoos
who's beating on his wife
whilst shouting at the TV at how
those Muslims are supposedly treating women and other minorities.
They do not argue in good faith,
so there's no convincing them otherwise.
This is also why I get confused
when some people eschew violence
completely whilst protesting against
those who are happy to commit horrific violence upon them.
If your objective is to get them to stop it,
then in some cases violence is needed.
Not excessive violence.
But enough to make them stop.
But that's just my opinion.
So back to this article,
going through the comments,
it becomes clear that for most of these guys,
critical thinking is something only "liberal elites" do.
For example,
quite a few of them seem to equate "far right"
with... "Whites".
So they were complaining that
Muslim extremists were wrongly classified.
You could not make this up.
I hate to break it to you guys,
but far right Muslims are still... you know, far right.
You fucking idiots.
Oh, and we're forgetting
a little something, aren't we?
The German state also classify
criticism of Zionists and Israel as "antisemitic".
So if you were against the apartheid state and its policies,
you'd be labeled as a racist, an anti-Semite.
Which is ironic,
since Palestinian Arabs happen to be Semites as well.
But yeah.
I'm severely annoyed,
but it's being blunted by how sleepy I am.
Think I've managed to figure out how to get that paragraph done.
Will get to it now.
Well enough of that.
Wednesday, May 29, 2019
Monday, May 20, 2019
Nazis
I've got a lot to say,
but I'll need to make this short
before my daughter and wife
come out of the room,
demanding attention.
So I've finished listening to
one of Joe Rogan's podcasts
with Annie Jacobsen,
who wrote a book about Operation Paperclip,
which is about the Nazi scientist who were brought
over to America by the government.
One argument I've heard
over and over again is that yeah,
while these were
horrible people who did unspeakable things,
at least they discovered or their research paved the way to
a cure for a horrible disease or some other modern marvel
that we would have never discovered otherwise.
Oh yes,
innocent people (including children)
had to experience great suffering,
and sure, we sulk about it from time to time,
but hey, it all worked out in the end!
Thumbs up everyone!
It's all good!
This fucking pisses me the hell off.
Why?
Well first of all,
it's based purely on speculation.
100%
How the fuck do we know
there weren't other, more humane ways?
We could of course
refer to the millions of potential
scientists and engineers...
brilliant people who were discriminated against,
tortured,
killed,
whole families...
but you know,
they ALL FUCKING DIED BEFORE THEY COULD DO ANYTHING.
Fuck the people
who try to justify the atrocities
or downplay how horrible it all was,
or try to ignore that aspect altogether.
The world could've turned
out differently...
or maybe it could've been worse,
who knows?
We'll never know because
of what those fuckers did.
Here's another thing that gets me.
Why do Westerners in general
consistently treat the Holocaust
as the worst thing that ever happened in the history of mankind?
It was undeniably horrible,
but the way it gets described,
it's as if there's a grotesque competition going on.
All other atrocities on a similar scale
tend to get brushed aside.
There are some who
claim that the Holocaust
is basically Europeans bringing to
Europe what they've been doing
in other parts of the world,
particularly Africa.
Where were
the trials and raft of laws
passed after the Congo Genocide?
I'll need to end this soon,
but I'll add this:
The Nazi scientists who
were brought to the US,
were LAUDED,
celebrated as great men.
They were given awards
and lavish banquets
and a lot of money.
Why?
You could've had
an arrangement
where they had to work,
and contribute
while on lifelong parole.
That wouldn't
have been anywhere
near justice,
but I could at least
understand that.
But nope!
They were
treated with honour and respect
and lived in motherfucking luxury.
How many Jewish or non-white
scientists do you think
managed to advance in NASA
while a fucking Nazi ran it?
And that was just a symptom.
The "people" who accommodated them,
the fucking animals who sympathised
with their twisted ideology,
were the ones who ran the government
and spread out in positions of power throughout the US.
With that kind of prevalent culture,
how many non-whites were
given the opportunity to learn and succeed?
I've heard racists
claim why aren't there
more people of colour
who have been awarded a Nobel prize as opposed to whites?
Well it's simple, assholes.
They were stopped before they had the chance.
Well enough of that.
but I'll need to make this short
before my daughter and wife
come out of the room,
demanding attention.
So I've finished listening to
one of Joe Rogan's podcasts
with Annie Jacobsen,
who wrote a book about Operation Paperclip,
which is about the Nazi scientist who were brought
over to America by the government.
One argument I've heard
over and over again is that yeah,
while these were
horrible people who did unspeakable things,
at least they discovered or their research paved the way to
a cure for a horrible disease or some other modern marvel
that we would have never discovered otherwise.
Oh yes,
innocent people (including children)
had to experience great suffering,
and sure, we sulk about it from time to time,
but hey, it all worked out in the end!
Thumbs up everyone!
It's all good!
This fucking pisses me the hell off.
Why?
Well first of all,
it's based purely on speculation.
100%
How the fuck do we know
there weren't other, more humane ways?
We could of course
refer to the millions of potential
scientists and engineers...
brilliant people who were discriminated against,
tortured,
killed,
whole families...
but you know,
they ALL FUCKING DIED BEFORE THEY COULD DO ANYTHING.
Fuck the people
who try to justify the atrocities
or downplay how horrible it all was,
or try to ignore that aspect altogether.
The world could've turned
out differently...
or maybe it could've been worse,
who knows?
We'll never know because
of what those fuckers did.
Here's another thing that gets me.
Why do Westerners in general
consistently treat the Holocaust
as the worst thing that ever happened in the history of mankind?
It was undeniably horrible,
but the way it gets described,
it's as if there's a grotesque competition going on.
All other atrocities on a similar scale
tend to get brushed aside.
There are some who
claim that the Holocaust
is basically Europeans bringing to
Europe what they've been doing
in other parts of the world,
particularly Africa.
Where were
the trials and raft of laws
passed after the Congo Genocide?
I'll need to end this soon,
but I'll add this:
The Nazi scientists who
were brought to the US,
were LAUDED,
celebrated as great men.
They were given awards
and lavish banquets
and a lot of money.
Why?
You could've had
an arrangement
where they had to work,
and contribute
while on lifelong parole.
That wouldn't
have been anywhere
near justice,
but I could at least
understand that.
But nope!
They were
treated with honour and respect
and lived in motherfucking luxury.
How many Jewish or non-white
scientists do you think
managed to advance in NASA
while a fucking Nazi ran it?
And that was just a symptom.
The "people" who accommodated them,
the fucking animals who sympathised
with their twisted ideology,
were the ones who ran the government
and spread out in positions of power throughout the US.
With that kind of prevalent culture,
how many non-whites were
given the opportunity to learn and succeed?
I've heard racists
claim why aren't there
more people of colour
who have been awarded a Nobel prize as opposed to whites?
Well it's simple, assholes.
They were stopped before they had the chance.
Well enough of that.
Monday, April 15, 2019
Notre Dame Burns
This is going to be short and angry.
So there's been a fire at Notre Dame in France,
and apparently the damage is extensive.
Now usually I despair at things like this,
where priceless historical documents and buildings are damaged beyond repair.
Apparently it's a tragedy worthy of being plastered
across the front pages or newspapers or front and centre
on most major news sites like The Guardian (https://www.theguardian.com/world/live/2019/apr/15/notre-dame-cathedral-fire-paris-france-landmark-live-news).
The more I read about it,
the less I cared about the building and the more angry I got.
In fact, I'm downright furious.
Refugees are being tortured and abused
around the world,
including France...
and this is what's most important to them?
THIS takes precedence?
Hell, I could understand it being a major news story,
which it most definitely is.
But when I read about how the French PM asked the country
to rebuilt it together,
and account a motherfucking international fundraising campaign
for repairs...
And not to mention a cocksucking billionaire who has
pledged 100 million euros towards rebuilding it...
Words can't describe how pissed off I am.
It's hard for me to view them as people.
These goddamn fucking animals.
Refugees are treated like dirt
(as a direct result of French interference in their countries, by the way),
and suffering...
not to mention other marginalized groups like
the Roma especially.
And this?
This is what they're raising funds for?
And I can just imagine the
response from racists (the ones with balls will at least admit it)
who will use all manner of deflective arguments to
justify by a goddamn building matters more than
(non-white) human lives.
Fuck every single one of them.
Well enough of that.
So there's been a fire at Notre Dame in France,
and apparently the damage is extensive.
Now usually I despair at things like this,
where priceless historical documents and buildings are damaged beyond repair.
Apparently it's a tragedy worthy of being plastered
across the front pages or newspapers or front and centre
on most major news sites like The Guardian (https://www.theguardian.com/world/live/2019/apr/15/notre-dame-cathedral-fire-paris-france-landmark-live-news).
The more I read about it,
the less I cared about the building and the more angry I got.
In fact, I'm downright furious.
Refugees are being tortured and abused
around the world,
including France...
and this is what's most important to them?
THIS takes precedence?
Hell, I could understand it being a major news story,
which it most definitely is.
But when I read about how the French PM asked the country
to rebuilt it together,
and account a motherfucking international fundraising campaign
for repairs...
And not to mention a cocksucking billionaire who has
pledged 100 million euros towards rebuilding it...
Words can't describe how pissed off I am.
It's hard for me to view them as people.
These goddamn fucking animals.
Refugees are treated like dirt
(as a direct result of French interference in their countries, by the way),
and suffering...
not to mention other marginalized groups like
the Roma especially.
And this?
This is what they're raising funds for?
And I can just imagine the
response from racists (the ones with balls will at least admit it)
who will use all manner of deflective arguments to
justify by a goddamn building matters more than
(non-white) human lives.
Fuck every single one of them.
Well enough of that.
Wednesday, February 20, 2019
Shamima Begum and the Stripping of her British Citizenship
So ISIS is on their last legs,
and are pretty much dead.
And of course,
the calls for brutal vengeance
against anyone perceived to have been a part of
the group have now grown to a crescendo,
I feel.
So many people are
expressing what they probably think of as righteous anger.
Some more extreme than others.
Because they're so good, you see.
Such good, decent people.
I am no fan of ISIS,
and I'm glad to see the end of them.
But is this the path to peace?
I mean, really?
Hell, even Nazi grunts
were treated better!
And some of the more senior members
were actually on AMERICAN SOCIAL SECURITY
until a few years ago.
FUCKING NAZIS.
Lately,
there have been a ton of articles on
Shamima Begum,
who had left Britain at age 15 (!!)
to travel to ISIS-held territory,
and was married off to a guy twice her age (read: statutory rape).
So she's 19 now,
and the war is pretty much over.
She wants to return to the UK,
and live a quiet life with her child.
But nope!
Not only are so many people against it,
but that motherfucking piece of shit
U.K. Home Minister,
himself a son of immigrants,
in an attempt to pander especially to nationalists (I mean come on,
basically white racists),
had decided to revoke her citizenship,
essentially rendering her stateless.
Oh!
But not for her son,
of course.
Yea, that's not all kinds of fucked up.
And people are cheering for it!
They're ecstatic!
I mean,
sure, she doesn't regret supporting ISIS,
but she hasn't been convicted of any crime.
So she's essentially being punished
in an extralegal way for "thoughtcrime".
And let's not kid ourselves here.
She and her child.
Never mind the fact
that she was FIFTEEN when she
was married off to a much older guy and got pregnant.
Nope, no grooming there.
I've seen so many
people who must've been frothing at
the mouth as they exclaimed "SHE WENT THERE WILLINGLY".
She was FIFTEEN.
Let that sink in for a second.
Oh what?
Doesn't apply?
Anything to do with the fact that
she's brown and Muslim?
Naaaah.
Probably not, right?
Also, the war is over.
AND SHE WAS A CIVILIAN.
I mean holy shit.
I don't see anybody baying for the blood
of American and British troops' who have been convicted of torture (yea, there's a ton to talk about there but I'll skip it for now).
How barbaric is that?
When a war is over,
you RELEASE the POWs.
But nope.
Let' focus on technicalities like how
they're not really soldiers,
but actually "enemy combatants".
When will people learn
that the objective is to continue
perpetual war.
Keep creating generation after generation of enemies.
The gravy train must never stop.
Oh, and for those
claiming she could be a security risk?
In the UK?
Again,
I don't recall soldiers who have
been convicted of torture (too few,
and the sentences too lenient)
having had their citizenship revoked.
Are you telling me they're less of a security risk
vs. the mother of an infant
against whom there's no evidence
that she has committed or plans to commit any crime?
What about those violent white nationalists?
No?
Not a threat either?
OK, OK... how about
the politicians and businesses
that have benefited and continue to benefit
immensely from arms sales, for example?
Be responsible for the murder of millions
of brown people and it's a-OK.
Be married to an enemy fighter and wanting to live a quiet life?
HOLY SHIT EVERYBODY FREAK THE FUCK OUT.
And of course,
those same goddamn idiots
who applaud the revocation of her citizenship
probably don't realize something: It sets a precedence.
What it means is
anyone can have their citizenship arbitrarily revoked by the Home Ministry.
No due process whatsoever.
Of course the majority of those
applauding this are not worried at all.
Why?
Simple. How often do you see this kind of happening to whites?
Oh sure,
a few isolated cases here and there.
But if they truly felt threatened,
you would've seen massive protests.
Oh no.
They know quite well that they're generally safe.
But they're wrong.
Piss off the wrong person for whatever reason,
maybe the officer's girlfriend looked at you the wrong way or added you on Facebook,
maybe the office is just having a bad day or doesn't like your face or has a quota to fill.
Of course those idiots won't recognise the danger,
until it affects them.
Well enough of that.
and are pretty much dead.
And of course,
the calls for brutal vengeance
against anyone perceived to have been a part of
the group have now grown to a crescendo,
I feel.
So many people are
expressing what they probably think of as righteous anger.
Some more extreme than others.
Because they're so good, you see.
Such good, decent people.
I am no fan of ISIS,
and I'm glad to see the end of them.
But is this the path to peace?
I mean, really?
Hell, even Nazi grunts
were treated better!
And some of the more senior members
were actually on AMERICAN SOCIAL SECURITY
until a few years ago.
FUCKING NAZIS.
Lately,
there have been a ton of articles on
Shamima Begum,
who had left Britain at age 15 (!!)
to travel to ISIS-held territory,
and was married off to a guy twice her age (read: statutory rape).
So she's 19 now,
and the war is pretty much over.
She wants to return to the UK,
and live a quiet life with her child.
But nope!
Not only are so many people against it,
but that motherfucking piece of shit
U.K. Home Minister,
himself a son of immigrants,
in an attempt to pander especially to nationalists (I mean come on,
basically white racists),
had decided to revoke her citizenship,
essentially rendering her stateless.
Oh!
But not for her son,
of course.
Yea, that's not all kinds of fucked up.
And people are cheering for it!
They're ecstatic!
I mean,
sure, she doesn't regret supporting ISIS,
but she hasn't been convicted of any crime.
So she's essentially being punished
in an extralegal way for "thoughtcrime".
And let's not kid ourselves here.
She and her child.
Never mind the fact
that she was FIFTEEN when she
was married off to a much older guy and got pregnant.
Nope, no grooming there.
I've seen so many
people who must've been frothing at
the mouth as they exclaimed "SHE WENT THERE WILLINGLY".
She was FIFTEEN.
Let that sink in for a second.
Oh what?
Doesn't apply?
Anything to do with the fact that
she's brown and Muslim?
Naaaah.
Probably not, right?
Also, the war is over.
AND SHE WAS A CIVILIAN.
I mean holy shit.
I don't see anybody baying for the blood
of American and British troops' who have been convicted of torture (yea, there's a ton to talk about there but I'll skip it for now).
How barbaric is that?
When a war is over,
you RELEASE the POWs.
But nope.
Let' focus on technicalities like how
they're not really soldiers,
but actually "enemy combatants".
When will people learn
that the objective is to continue
perpetual war.
Keep creating generation after generation of enemies.
The gravy train must never stop.
Oh, and for those
claiming she could be a security risk?
In the UK?
Again,
I don't recall soldiers who have
been convicted of torture (too few,
and the sentences too lenient)
having had their citizenship revoked.
Are you telling me they're less of a security risk
vs. the mother of an infant
against whom there's no evidence
that she has committed or plans to commit any crime?
What about those violent white nationalists?
No?
Not a threat either?
OK, OK... how about
the politicians and businesses
that have benefited and continue to benefit
immensely from arms sales, for example?
Be responsible for the murder of millions
of brown people and it's a-OK.
Be married to an enemy fighter and wanting to live a quiet life?
HOLY SHIT EVERYBODY FREAK THE FUCK OUT.
And of course,
those same goddamn idiots
who applaud the revocation of her citizenship
probably don't realize something: It sets a precedence.
What it means is
anyone can have their citizenship arbitrarily revoked by the Home Ministry.
No due process whatsoever.
Of course the majority of those
applauding this are not worried at all.
Why?
Simple. How often do you see this kind of happening to whites?
Oh sure,
a few isolated cases here and there.
But if they truly felt threatened,
you would've seen massive protests.
Oh no.
They know quite well that they're generally safe.
But they're wrong.
Piss off the wrong person for whatever reason,
maybe the officer's girlfriend looked at you the wrong way or added you on Facebook,
maybe the office is just having a bad day or doesn't like your face or has a quota to fill.
Of course those idiots won't recognise the danger,
until it affects them.
Well enough of that.
Friday, February 8, 2019
Liam Neeson Deserves a Cookie
So this is going to be a really quick one.
I've finally got a bit of time to do my shit,
but this thought has been swirling around in my head
to the point where it's about to become a goddamn hurricane,
so I've got to let it out.
Liam Neeson was promoting
yet another one of this mindless action flicks (he's a goddamn grandpa, but yea OK),
when he mentioned wanting to kill any black man
over the tragic rape of one of his friends.
I'm not going to go over into too much
detail about that, which you can read about here:
https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2019/feb/06/liam-neesons-racist-actions-avenge-white-woman-lynching-black-people
You can also Google the numerous articles and endless follow-up
articles about it.
I don't have the time to delve into all of that.
Instead,
I'd like to focus on the reaction
of some people.
Apparently
Liam Neeson confessing
about something as horrifying as that
is not that big of a deal!
"The man's no longer a racist!"
They should and scream
whilst decrying those who express
horror and anger and dismay at his comments.
In fact,
quite a number of them
claim he should be commended!
One goddamn article even said he should
receive a medal!
Sure.
Maybe not a medal.
That would be going too far.
How about a cookie?
A cookie for that time
when he wanted to lynch a random black man,
and stalked the streets with a large stick
for a whole week but aww shucks,
the opportunity just never came up!
(Let's forget about how he basically abandoned
the friend he was supposedly seeking justice for,
in order to fulfill a racist fantasy).
And after that week,
his racism was cured!
It was completely gone!
What a motherfucking miracle!
Apparently he decided something like
"Oh what on earth am I doing? Silly me!"
He then spoke with friends and a priest
and took up power walking!
And the racism was gone!
Completely!
Never discriminated against others again
based on the colour of their skin!
I mean sure, we don't have to delve into ANY of that.
Of course not.
OF COURSE NOT.
I'm sure during his rise,
and throughout his time as an A-Lister,
he never held anyone's careers back
because they were not the right colour.
I am absolutely positive
that he never EVER hurt anyone,
or went just a wee bit overboard,
because that person wasn't White.
Nope!
Banish the thought!
How dare you!
He power walks, goddammit!
You motherfucking ignoramus.
Also, I'll have you know,
that he said if his friend
had mentioned that the rapist were white,
he would've gone after a white person!
So there!
I mean sure,
he would've have gone after just ANY ol' white person.
That would be silly.
Can you imagine right after that conversation,
where he heads home,
picks up his beloved weapon,
looks himself in the mirror and bashes his brains in?
That would be ridiculous!
How about his dad?
Of course not.
His close friends?
Nah.
He would have had to
create a nice, neat little list
in his head about the acceptable types
of white person to lynch.
It would've required a bit more thought, you see.
But not for blacks!
It's only logical, after all.
So let's forget about all that crap.
And focus on his excellent acting,
especially in the Taken series,
which,
now that I think about it,
is basically one long
white male saviour fantasy,
involving evil (and rapist and mostly brown or black) foreigners.
Fear the old,
middle aged white man!
His strength and anger are beyond compare!
OK let's say he truly is not racist anymore.
Did he try to make up for what he did,
and what he was?
How has he tried to atone for his actions?
Ahh... shut the fuck up already!
Let's give him the cookie.
So yea,
fuck him,
and the white supremacists who defend this cunt.
Well enough of that.
I've finally got a bit of time to do my shit,
but this thought has been swirling around in my head
to the point where it's about to become a goddamn hurricane,
so I've got to let it out.
Liam Neeson was promoting
yet another one of this mindless action flicks (he's a goddamn grandpa, but yea OK),
when he mentioned wanting to kill any black man
over the tragic rape of one of his friends.
I'm not going to go over into too much
detail about that, which you can read about here:
https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2019/feb/06/liam-neesons-racist-actions-avenge-white-woman-lynching-black-people
You can also Google the numerous articles and endless follow-up
articles about it.
I don't have the time to delve into all of that.
Instead,
I'd like to focus on the reaction
of some people.
Apparently
Liam Neeson confessing
about something as horrifying as that
is not that big of a deal!
"The man's no longer a racist!"
They should and scream
whilst decrying those who express
horror and anger and dismay at his comments.
In fact,
quite a number of them
claim he should be commended!
One goddamn article even said he should
receive a medal!
Sure.
Maybe not a medal.
That would be going too far.
How about a cookie?
A cookie for that time
when he wanted to lynch a random black man,
and stalked the streets with a large stick
for a whole week but aww shucks,
the opportunity just never came up!
(Let's forget about how he basically abandoned
the friend he was supposedly seeking justice for,
in order to fulfill a racist fantasy).
And after that week,
his racism was cured!
It was completely gone!
What a motherfucking miracle!
Apparently he decided something like
"Oh what on earth am I doing? Silly me!"
He then spoke with friends and a priest
and took up power walking!
And the racism was gone!
Completely!
Never discriminated against others again
based on the colour of their skin!
I mean sure, we don't have to delve into ANY of that.
Of course not.
OF COURSE NOT.
I'm sure during his rise,
and throughout his time as an A-Lister,
he never held anyone's careers back
because they were not the right colour.
I am absolutely positive
that he never EVER hurt anyone,
or went just a wee bit overboard,
because that person wasn't White.
Nope!
Banish the thought!
How dare you!
He power walks, goddammit!
You motherfucking ignoramus.
Also, I'll have you know,
that he said if his friend
had mentioned that the rapist were white,
he would've gone after a white person!
So there!
I mean sure,
he would've have gone after just ANY ol' white person.
That would be silly.
Can you imagine right after that conversation,
where he heads home,
picks up his beloved weapon,
looks himself in the mirror and bashes his brains in?
That would be ridiculous!
How about his dad?
Of course not.
His close friends?
Nah.
He would have had to
create a nice, neat little list
in his head about the acceptable types
of white person to lynch.
It would've required a bit more thought, you see.
But not for blacks!
It's only logical, after all.
So let's forget about all that crap.
And focus on his excellent acting,
especially in the Taken series,
which,
now that I think about it,
is basically one long
white male saviour fantasy,
involving evil (and rapist and mostly brown or black) foreigners.
Fear the old,
middle aged white man!
His strength and anger are beyond compare!
OK let's say he truly is not racist anymore.
Did he try to make up for what he did,
and what he was?
How has he tried to atone for his actions?
Ahh... shut the fuck up already!
Let's give him the cookie.
So yea,
fuck him,
and the white supremacists who defend this cunt.
Well enough of that.
Monday, February 4, 2019
What's The Goddamn Point
That I haven't written lately
is not for lack of material or motivation,
but mostly due to my goddamn packed-as-hell schedule.
Right now though,
I feel like I'm about to explode,
and if I don't write,
my frustration might come out in a more unexpected and unpleasant way.
So here I am.
There's so fucking much to write about, man.
From the situation in Venezuela with the idiots who don't know
a goddamn thing about the country lambasting socialism,
and the "corrupt" government that had been elected in free and fair elections.
Here's a tip: Just because some sections of the incompetent, corrupt opposition
decide to boycott the elections does not invalidate the results.
Reminds me of the history of the Soviet Union,
and how everybody seems to have forgotten how it truly
was a "People's Revolution" (technically two revolutions in
a short space of time),
and how the other world powers crushed similar revolutions,
and attacked the newly-formed union, non-stop.
The documentation is there.
Read, you lazy, ignorant bastards.
Then maybe you'll learn
a little bit about how the Soviet Union morphed into
the grotesque entity that it eventually became near the end.
What else?
Oh yeah.
My beloved wife.
Who is now addicted to e-books.
It's like nearly every waking hour,
every available second she has is dedicated to
reading those goddamn abominations.
Alright fine,
it's not that I have anything against e-books per se.
But man, we don't really talk anymore,
even when we're outside.
Once I decided to see
how far away I could get
while she was distracted by her book.
Turns out, pretty goddamn far.
And she was upset about it.
Holy shit.
What is the motherfucking point
of hanging out with someone,
when that person gets to dictate
exactly when interaction happens?
Do you know how much fun it is
to walk alongside someone,
or sit opposite them for a drink at a cafe,
while they are completely glued to their phone?
How about when you try and make conversation,
and you can see the annoyed look
on their face,
about how you're interrupting them instead?
The other day I briefly snapped at her for being
glued to her phone while we were walking to our
ride, that was waiting for us.
And she got upset about it!
Holy shit put it down for one goddamn second.
Do I need to always check on you
like you're a child?
I literally could've just gotten in the car
and taken off...
and she MIGHT have noticed
maybe 20-30 mins later.
Or even an hour.
How the hell do you expect me to
want to speak with you,
hang out with you,
if the phone and those books
hold most of your attention?
Tried speaking with her about it,
and she always gets defensive.
Always.
It feels fucking hopeless,
and after an exhausting day or week at work,
I'm really too tired to even put in much effort to try and overcome it.
Let her have her fucking books.
I've got my own projects to work on.
And we'll see where we are at the end of the year.
Well enough of that.
Sunday, December 30, 2018
Useless Idiot
This is going to be a very short post.
I'd turned down my sweet, adorable 4 year-old (shut your fucking mouth)
to play with her,
and she's grown smart and kind enough to leave me
alone for a bit while I do my work,
which consisted of drawing while listening to Wrestling with Wregret on Youtube.
We were in the living room,
and she was playing by herself with this large fishing game,
where little plastic fish rotate in a circle,
and their mouths open when they rise and close when they sink.
I had my earphones on,
but I heard her clearly.
She sounded like she was whining,
like she sometimes does when she's bored.
Now usually I always try and have a look first,
to see if everything's OK.
I figured this time,
eh, no rush.
Her cry became more distressed,
so I paused the video and saw that was in pain,
with tears streaming down,
because her finger was stuck in that machine.
I should've moved faster but I was
fucking slow and stupid.
Headed over immediately and it took me half a second to
realize I needed to switch the fucking thing off first.
Her finger was now stuck and I didn't know how to pull it out.
And the whole time was in pain.
Finally got it out,
miraculously.
And it hit me later
to remember to either lift the damn piece
out of the circle,
or remember how the fucking thing turned and turn it back round.
But no,
I was too fucking stupid and slow to think of it at the time.
Picked her up,
hugged her,
comforted her...
and her finger is fine,
although there was a bruise for a while.
The one goddamn time I don't look.
I got lazy.
Over what?
A fucking Youtube video?
You dumb fucking animal.
Couldn't take a motherfucking second to turn and just LOOK.
That's all I had to do.
But no,
I even took the goddamn time to pause the fucking thing.
That's how much of a smart, reliable dad I am.
Goddamn useless,
and while I'm so tempted
to fucking pummel myself like I sometimes do...
like I deserve...
I know that doing so,
would only bring me down deeper into the hole
I'm trying to get out of...
and she's relying on me.
I owe it to her to try and get better.
There's nothing anybody can say or do
to change things.
But the next time,
I don't give a shit if I'm sick or weak or sleepy as hell.
At the very least I'll have a look first.
Better that I get annoyed
than a single hair on her head gets harmed.
Well enough of that.
I'd turned down my sweet, adorable 4 year-old (shut your fucking mouth)
to play with her,
and she's grown smart and kind enough to leave me
alone for a bit while I do my work,
which consisted of drawing while listening to Wrestling with Wregret on Youtube.
We were in the living room,
and she was playing by herself with this large fishing game,
where little plastic fish rotate in a circle,
and their mouths open when they rise and close when they sink.
I had my earphones on,
but I heard her clearly.
She sounded like she was whining,
like she sometimes does when she's bored.
Now usually I always try and have a look first,
to see if everything's OK.
I figured this time,
eh, no rush.
Her cry became more distressed,
so I paused the video and saw that was in pain,
with tears streaming down,
because her finger was stuck in that machine.
I should've moved faster but I was
fucking slow and stupid.
Headed over immediately and it took me half a second to
realize I needed to switch the fucking thing off first.
Her finger was now stuck and I didn't know how to pull it out.
And the whole time was in pain.
Finally got it out,
miraculously.
And it hit me later
to remember to either lift the damn piece
out of the circle,
or remember how the fucking thing turned and turn it back round.
But no,
I was too fucking stupid and slow to think of it at the time.
Picked her up,
hugged her,
comforted her...
and her finger is fine,
although there was a bruise for a while.
The one goddamn time I don't look.
I got lazy.
Over what?
A fucking Youtube video?
You dumb fucking animal.
Couldn't take a motherfucking second to turn and just LOOK.
That's all I had to do.
But no,
I even took the goddamn time to pause the fucking thing.
That's how much of a smart, reliable dad I am.
Goddamn useless,
and while I'm so tempted
to fucking pummel myself like I sometimes do...
like I deserve...
I know that doing so,
would only bring me down deeper into the hole
I'm trying to get out of...
and she's relying on me.
I owe it to her to try and get better.
There's nothing anybody can say or do
to change things.
But the next time,
I don't give a shit if I'm sick or weak or sleepy as hell.
At the very least I'll have a look first.
Better that I get annoyed
than a single hair on her head gets harmed.
Well enough of that.
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