She fucking did it again.
On the morning of Eid Fitri,
I woke up to a charge of almost a hundred bucks on my credit card.
Vitamins and shit including for me,
which I'd specifically told her not to get.
And the weekend before,
she'd spent almost $200 on a trip to the movies with my daughter.
Motherfucker what the hell?
This was after we'd spent almost A THOUSAND BUCKS on
my daughter's art class.
We discussed this.
Agreed to cut down on the spending for this month.
And one week later,
what the fuck does she do?
I don't know if it's apathy or narcissism or ignorance or something else.
Words don't seem to work on her,
and I'm exhausted.
I'll have to treat her like a little kid.
She'll probably get upset about it,
won't understand why...
which, when you think about it, would be fucking ironic.
I've told her already that she's not to use my card
for the rest of this month.
We've only got a week left,
but we'll see.
And if she pulls this kind of shit again,
especially within the month,
then I'll begin removing my credit card
from one of her apps.
And the time she does it after that?
Another app.
Until there's none left,
not even for cabs.
I was really hoping to avoid this shit.
Once you cross this line,
it's hard to go back, you know?
But she does not seem to grasp the importance of saving,
or spending within your means,
or hell,
even the fact that once you spend money,
guess what??
IT'S GONE.
MONEY SPENT. THEN NO MORE MONEY.
Fucking hell.
It always vexed me to not figure out the next steps.
And when I did,
made me concerned about the long-term implications.
But looks like I've got little choice.
Words don't work.
Agreements don't work.
If I don't stop this,
if an emergency happens,
we'd be in deep trouble.
I'm earning the most I've ever earned in my life...
and we're practically living paycheck to paycheck.
It's fucking insanity.
She doesn't even have any savings.
None.
What the fuck is this obsession with emptying
her goddamn bank account every month?
Anyway,
this is what needs to happen.
Fuck.
Well enough of that.
