It just hit me as I was washing dishes
on a lazy Sunday afternoon,
intermingling with thoughts of going back to Korea,
and the mild frustration with having to come back to Singapore and work.
Happiness is so fleeting.
And I'd read someone say (in an online comment!)
that people experience happiness,
and spend their lives chasing after
the chance to experience something similar or better.
Well something like that.
But the core of the message has stuck with me.
Happiness is fleeting.
You'll always have problems,
things to do,
bills to pay,
responsibilities.
Even with all the money
in the world,
there's no such thing as pure happiness all the time.
Whether it's games or sex or anything else you can think of.
It always ends.
And those who can't accept this,
are doomed to chase after phantoms.
Even if you aren't,
the entire process is a marathon.
I mean, I knew that.
I KNOW that.
But it's always good to remind yourself from time to time.
My OCD has been acting up again,
and I fear that it might influence the little one.
I've decided though,
to take it easy.
Can't pray 5 times a day?
Cut it down first.
Build up the tolerance like a muscle.
Otherwise it all come crumbling down,
and not only will I bring myself to the dirt,
I'll drag my family with me.
Not gonna happen.
Anyway,
looking forward to getting my license,
and driving a tiny-ass car in Korea!
Or maybe a decent-sized car.
Eh, we'll see.
Well enough of that.
