Today I think I truly understood just how disconnected
from reality she is,
or can be.
There seems to be a problem with my bank account,
and almost a thousand dollars seemed to have vanished,
preventing me from paying off my credit card bill.
So we're already in a pretty bad shape financially,
but this...
this will push us into debt.
One of the worst kinds of debt: Credit card.
I'd budgeted at least to cover that.
We'd have at least around a thousand dollars left to see if I can get a job
within a month once we're back in Singapore.
But with this...
I only have like $360.
Hell, I wouldn't have blamed her if she'd panicked.
It would've been a normal reaction.
Instead...
she just went 'Hey, I want to go out.'
Maybe the gravity of the situation hadn't hit her yet.
But nope...
a little while later, she jokes
about farming bitcoins or something.
This is like making a joke
while we're on a sinking ship in the middle of the ocean.
And I know that this next argument is going to come up.
I know this.
And it will basically be something like this:
Her: I want to go out! Do stuff!
Me: We can go out once or twice a week, but I really need to focus on making money.
Her: But I'm bored! I'm BORED.
This is insanity. It's delusion.
I can't believe I'm on my own on this. But I am.
For the baby's sake, I need to pull us out of this. Alone.
Well enough of that.
