Even the title of this post reflects my
struggle to find the right words to articulate how I feel.
A word lingered in my mind,
yet I'm unable to find it.
Maybe it's the fatigue,
or the stress of looking for a gig with a baby on the way.
Lately I've been watching and reading way, way too many
articles and videos involving Islamophobia, and the crises in the Ukraine, Palestine and Syria.
I understand and support the arguments put forth by Chomsky, Galloway, Finkelstein.
Problem is, I'd been letting them make the arguments for me.
It's like putting my mind on auto-drive.
There are arguments I should counter on my own,
with my own words and thoughts.
But there's a need for balance too.
Constantly immersing myself in the negative news
means too many arguments to counter, all the time.
Just the thought of it exhausts me.
I don't just want to take a step back,
I need it.
I need my focus to be back on hunting for jobs,
being able to form critical arguments for why I am the cure to the organization's pain.
The first step is something I repeat from time to time,
but it doesn't diminish the importance of it:
I need to write on a more regular basis.
Pick an argument and counter it.
There's no need to counter every single one I come across every day.
Pick a different topic everyday, too.
Whether it's the corruption of the Lee Kuan Yew and the PAP,
the stupid xenophobic arguments made by Singaporeans,
or any Islamophobic argument made by anyone in the world.
My new workout routine begins tonight.
My new posting routine shall begin tomorrow.
Well enough of that
