Been a while since I've been here.
Man, I wanna say that things have improved, that I'm doing better.
I'm not.
With what, like a year-and-a-half left? Goddamn.
I have made a friend or two,
but when I view their Facebook page or something (shut the fuck up),
and see their recent 'events',
it makes me feel left out.
Despite the fact that I'm not close with them at all.
Holy shit what the hell is wrong with me?
I want constant attention, is that it?
Every time someone doesn't smile at me,
every time someone DOES...
It still makes me feel like beating the shit out of myself.
What's different, though?
Nothing much.
Went out with AND got rejected by a 35 year-old.
A fucking Auntie rejected me.
Jesus fucking Christ.
Is this as good as it gets?
I am not looking forward to Monday (as usual).
But I want this day to end quickly as well.
Fuck off.
Have a nice day!
Well enough of that.
