So this is going to be short.
I'm exhausted, man. Perpetually.
Maybe I'm depressed and just don't realise it.
Hell, there's a lot to be depressed about!
From the economic crisis (come on, let the financial crisis begin properly, you greedy fucks!),
including the market crashes,
to my being tired all the time,
to hell, even my tummy being large again as I struggle to bulk up on muscle
whilst losing fat at the same time.
Worst of all,
I feel like I'm failing my family from a religious standpoint as well.
Haven't been praying.
And Ramadhan has returned.
Hopefully I'll be able to kickstart praying regularly again during this month.
Oh yea,
almost forgot the reason for the title in the first place.
I've got a client who became a friend,
to the point where we'd visit each other's families and homes.
But over time,
I tolerate a lot of shit...
Like always making the choice to meet with them
in the East,
even though I live far in the West and do not have a car.
But hey, even though he's a friend,
he's also a client
so I was able to claim for the transportation and meal costs and eh,
when you think of it as work as well,
it doesn't seem so bad.
Problem started when we'd introduced our families to each other.
He and his wife have got two adorable kids,
who really got along well with my daughter at a time when it was hard for her to make friends.
They've got a pool at their house, too.
So the kids would really have a ton of fun together whenever they hung out there.
Over time, it became clear that it was always going to be us hanging out over there.
Never at our place.
Never nearby.
And yea fine,
I did ask if it was OK,
I'd explained how tough it was for my daughter to make friends...
Man, I thought we'd become close friends.
Now I can accept constant last-minute cancellations on our individual meet-ups.
But to cancel on my daughter?
More than once, if I recall.
Without even bothering to reschedule?
Na man. Fuck that.
Man she's at the age where she understands rejection.
I'm really glad she's made a lot of other friends since we last met them,
so she doesn't feel as alone as she used to.
I sure as hell am not going to expose her to them again.
So anyway,
he's constantly cancelling meet-ups even with another friend of ours.
We were pretty sick and tired of it,
but had to meet one more time because we'd bought a present for his kid's birthday...
and it was now what, one month? Two?
Where we hadn't had the chance to pass it to him.
So fine,
we started ignoring him in the group chat,
and in the end,
he seemed to realise something was off,
and we ended up scheduling the dinner tonight.
AT HIS FUCKING PLACE.
AGAIN.
5PM.
And he and his wife had the fucking nerve
to try and get me to bring my wife and daughter.
I declined to bring them,
but figured it'd be good to maybe have one last dinner, you know?
And although he's technically no longer a client,
his new company might need something, so why not?
But just like an hour ago,
his wife actually texted my wife separately,
lamenting how she wished they could come along.
Un-fuckin-believable.
Never mind the fact that it's a fucking SUNDAY,
and that my daughter would have to get up early the next morning for school.
OK I gotta calm down a bit.
Now I don't think they're bad people per se.
Hell, I don't even think they're full-blown narcissists.
People SHOULD put their families first.
But there's no need to treat others like crap,
and when all the activities revolve around only what's convenient for you...
then it makes you kind of a dick.
Personally, I don't mind hanging out alone with them.
He was a great client and very helpful.
But as a friend,
I'll have to keep my distance for now.
Maybe he and his wife will change in the future,
but for now I can't take that risk with my daughter.
Well enough of that.
