I'm so exhausted all the time nowadays.
Missed another gym session,
and had a minor argument with the wife,
so the entire night ended up being unproductive.
And the worst part?
I'll need to hit the gym tonight,
which she'll be upset about.
Goddammit.
There's just so little time for everything.
So little time.
And I still find myself
drifting over to Youtube,
and getting lost in stupid, motherfucking videos until it's time to head back home.
We have a strong chance now to establish
other businesses,
as backups in case something happens to my current role.
But I don't think she actually feels the urgency.
If I were to be let go for whatever reason today,
we'd be pretty much screwed.
And likely, so would her mom.
And possibly my parents further down the road.
I mean holy crap,
I only have around $140 in my savings account right now.
How that doesn't raise alarm bells for her,
I have no idea.
A question from Ragina during lunch
in the meeting room kind of jolted me.
What did I do for leisure?
The first thing that came to mind was...
trying to find ways to make more money.
And the occasional movie when I get the chance...
which is extremely rare.
And the wife doesn't want to watch with me anyway,
preferring her e-books.
Sounds lame,
but I do miss the early days
when we'd watch shows together
and talk about them afterwards.
We couldn't do that
when The Littlest Dictator first arrived, sure.
But we can do that now,
yet, she prefers those books.
Sometimes it feels like she's basically glued to her phone.
Hell, she even ignores my messages sometimes,
preferring to continue reading.
It's like I'm in a maze,
unable to find my way out,
with the Minotaur constantly looking for my ass.
Guess the only thing I can do now
is to restart working out,
and stick with the plan of saving $4K each month until January,
whilst trying out other things on the side to see what sticks.
Well enough of that.
