It's been so long.
Way too long, in fact.
I need to return here more often.
Once again, I am at a point where it's a struggle for find the right words
and form the proper sentences to articulate my thoughts.
Even as I type this,
numerous possible distractions call out to me.
Their call is so... alluring.
Just a few clicks. Just a few more minutes.
You can always write later.
It's been two weeks or possibly more,
since I've created a design,
or written anything.
And you know what the hell I've been busy with besides work?
Getting over my goddamn porn addiction.
I mean yea,
I don't watch traditional porn,
and I didn't think I even had an addiction.
What's that?
What do I mean by 'don't watch traditional porn'?
I'll leave that to your filthy, filthy imagination.
And believe it or not (and I really don't give a fuck if you don't),
I didn't think what I was watching was porn.
But when it began affecting my sex life,
and when I realized that if I stopped watching it,
I began craving it in a big way,
well, yea,
it's time to fucking STOP.
Sudden bouts of depression,
anxiety,
anger.
Hell, there were moments where I was convinced I should split from my wife,
because she decided to stay a bit longer with her mom in Korea.
Now that I think about it,
maybe it is good that I've got this time alone.
I've read that recovery can take a long, long time.
From 1 month to 6 months or more.
But after about a month,
the most severe withdrawal symptoms tend to subside.
So yeah, hanging in there.
Not as easy as it sounds.
There are so many things I'd like to talk about,
argue against: The new rules imposed on Little India *cough* martial law *cough*,
and the ridiculous uproar over Anton Casey's comments.
I mean sure,
he's a dick.
But suddenly he is all Singaporeans seem to be focused on.
WHAT ABOUT LITTLE INDIA?
You know, something that they should be significantly MORE worried about??
I mean, goddamn.
The bill was suddenly introduced,
and approved in what, less than a day?
Hell, at first I didn't even think it even went to parliament.
By the way,
let's not forget that parliament is dominated by the PAP,
whose members almost always toe the line,
and approving any bill is usually a mere formality,
to give the impression that yea,
Singaporeans' voices are heeded.
So what does this new law entail?
Strip searches,
entry into homes without warrants,
car searches,
you get the idea.
All it takes is for the officer to feel like such an action is needed.
Police State, anyone?
All this before the enquiry has even been completed.
By the way,
if anybody believe the investigating body itself is truly independent,
then man oh man,
I have a bridge I'd like to sell you right now. Great deal. One-time offer, baby.
But the the fact that they didn't even wait for it to come out.
Holy crap.
And people aren't worried about this?
Oh yeah that's right,
because South Asian foreign workers are brutes,
sub-human creatures with inferior intelligence,
who drink and riot because that is what they do,
and so we must control them.
Right.
Hell, they'd even deported a few workers.
What the hell happened to their right to a fair trial?
To contest the charges?
Thanks to the divisive race-based politics,
the idea that these workers are nothing but drunken troublemakers
goes down easier with the general dumbass cocksucking population.
Yes, there are exceptions.
Of course there are.
And if you're wondering whether or not you're one of them,
then chances are that yes, you are.
A dumbass does not realize how much of a dumbass he is.
There were like, only two days of debates.
Not even proper debates.
Just an article or two about whether or not it's the right thing to do.
And after that?
Anton Casey and his seriously stupid comments.
I wouldn't be surprised this had been engineered.
In any case,
it's really good to see just where our goddamn priorities lay.
It's a beautiful day today.
Maybe I'll step outside later.
Well enough of that.
