Half-way Through and Getting Nowhere

Where the fuck am I now?

I'm earning much, much more than what I wanted.
But it feels like I get no recognition.

Great.
Now I'm even more pissed because
I sound like a whiny little bitch.

Alright, alright I'll admit a couple of things.

Being rejected by that Korean bitch,
kinda stung.

She had initially accepted my coffee invite,
but changed her mind when she realized
that 'Faizal' wasn't the White guy on my team.

And then to have HIM win
'Employee of the Month',
kinda validates her opinion about
how much more superior the White guy is.

Yeah, yeah I know... I know...
It's just how I feel.

Also,
the reason they picked him,
was because "he worked on 2 teams!"

He fucking did not.
I got stuck with his shit.

He did fuck-all near the end of the quarter
when he was transferred.

Despite my repeated requests,
I wasn't given his opportunities
until less than a week before the quarter-end.

I was doing his stuff and mine,
and did the best I could.

So what happened?
His work appeared to have been
neglected,
and I got stuck with the blame,
while he gets the prize.

FUCK.
Now it's like
I want to be
'Employee of the Month'.


I fucking don't.
But to lose to someone like THAT.
Fucking hell.

It also makes it worse
because 2 members on my team
tried to get me fired.

Seems that way to me.
A part of me wants to give them
the benefit of the doubt.

But when you go straight to the boss
to cover your ass,
and place the blame on me,
you're asking for spiky dildoes up the ass.

All this,
while it's painfully obvious
that quite a number of ugly bitches
that quite a number of guys want to fuck
treat me like crap.

I try to be nice to everyone!
Well tried.

Man, just because
I say 'Hi' or 'Good morning!'
does NOT mean I want to brutally rape you.

I wouldn't do that to my penis.
Hell, I wouldn't do that to a 10-foot Herpes Pole.

Sometimes I wish the law
didn't exist,
so I could beat the shit out of them.

But eh,
we can't have everything.

Well enough of that.

Fuck all of you.